I’ve gotten very versed at the different types of crying. From the slight leak to keening.
Today is Day 30 for alcohol-free ness. Day 4 for benzo withdrawal.
I wont go into all of the cries in my collection. At least I can suggest some Melodic backdrop to enhance the experience for your own slight leaking or full on keening.
1) Johanna -from Sweeney Todd
2) Old Man River -from Showboat
3) Some Enchanted Evening – from South Pacific
4) Camera -REM
5) Unlovable – The Smiths
6) Perfect Circle -REM
7) We Kiss in a Shadow – from The King and I
8) Climb Every Mountain-from The Sound of Music
9) Insider – Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers
10) Track of Time – Anna von Hauswolff
Im not new to sobriety but I am newish to not really caring how many times a day I weep. To be transparent, this acceptance started way before the pandemic and has only served me.
I know about the stacked cry/or Pyramid cry . This one starts with catching myself in the mirror and appears to be about jowls or some compartment of my body but then I ask , “”wait what’s really going on there?” Breath. Tears are released and so are Tiers of the cry.
Here is a cry pyramid I experienced lately. Its starts out relatively banal and dysmorphic then levels down to more acceptable crying material.
Body image- usually some version of “you are UGLY”
grief over being so risk averse and creating a smaller life. Shame.
friends, time and experience lost over alcohol abuse/anxiety/fear/
A general feeling that Enchantment is gone and nothing joyful ever happen again
Biochemical release or the Ativan Cry
I thought I was going to be on Broadway now Im 52. I better get on “Real Housewives of Anything” and become in influencer so I can go to Broadway by the time Im 55.
There is no Broadway right now
Im not a a housewife
Oh sh*t, Covid 19
My Father is dead.
I drank thru 9-11
I ate thru Rodney King
Where is my tribe?
Im not safe
Nothing is safe
Plant Based Spiral -Animal keening
Looting
Curfews
I miss my father
My mother is starting to forget things
Im not hungover
smidge of compassion
So I have to parent myself now
RESULT- window of heart opened, smaller pores, and always awe and awwww of music.
Great blog post on the Holly Hunter Cry
Check out benefits of crying. I think we all can call BS on the stats for” how often people cry “in this article.
Benzo withdrawal stuff:
And please feel free to comment and let me know your own songs !
P.S Enlightened with Mike White and Laura Dern is a Masterpiece
Define Sober 